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April, what a turn.

So, I didn't really begin this blog until August of last year. And if none of you really caught on, last year is a complete contrast to this year. John and I were together of course. Our one year would've been April 3rd, three days ago. And now I'm married to someone completely different. I was in my second semester of college..yeah I has serious senioritis at the time too. I still had my Toyota truck, haha. Things are so entirely different it's weird. I don't even hang out with the same people I did before. It's amazing how much life can change in such a short amount of time. And it never ceases to amaze me. I assume it's because it's entirely so easy to be accustomed to a certain thing and when it changes, it's like "wow."

So..Hunt will be here on Thursday night to Sunday night. I haven't seen him since March 21st. Feels like forever. Everything is going well. He has received his orders so it is official, we will be heading to Italy on August 30th. That's his report date. I'm still finishing up school and really need to work on my Pharmacy Tech stuff from Penn Foster. I procrastinate. 

So we gave Bailey away last week as it just didn't suit our time line of events to come up. She went to an excellent ranching family. Also came to find that she was not an Aussie. But a Catahoula. I received an email the other day about her.

"Meagan
Just to let you know: Bailey is a joy. She is so smart and fitting in quite well. My kids just adore her. She is already learning to go outside to 'go' and has only had a couple accidents in the house. She knows sit, lay down, and we are working on 'roll over'. She'll do anything for a treat and on Easter she had a blast running and playing with all the kids. Thank you for giving her to us and know she has gotten a good home where she is loved. 
Thanks again,
Rachel"

I knew from the beginning she would be a good dog. I'm glad she went to such a good home. Hunt and I have decided to wait until the end of next year to acquire a family pet. Then we can get the one we really do want.

On another note..really weird, and it's been like this for awhile..ever have the baby lust? Where you just see a baby and you're like "DAMN I want one"? YEAH. Full-blown right now. It's been a frequent topic of discussion lately. And I really want that book What To Expect When You're Expecting. It's a somewhat difficult thing to deal with..but anyways. I wanna baby.

Today is my official last day of work. I am no longer an employee at Evergreen. Healthcare. Our company was taken over anyhow by Citrus Wellness on the 1st of April. I would've lost my job regardless but they seem like a good company. Smaller than Evergreen though. I'm hoping they'll do some serious remodeling of the building cause it's pretty ugly.

I feel like I have a lot of things on my mind.

Juuuuuune.

So, it seems I have not posted in awhile. I need to change a few things on here haha, seeing as my last name isn't Vallie. It's Gibson. I shall fix that after my post. So..in summation, yeah, I got married(: yay. I got a puppy the other day, Bailey. I've got myself going back to the gym. Quit my job. Still going to school however. Blehhh. I wanna be with my husband. Anyhow.

Here's Bailey:

Bailey I picked up on Sunday. She's an Aussie mix, about three months old. Total fur ball. Poor dog was just dumped in some neighbors yard. The lack of considerence from owners nowadays is strictly appalling. How can you just dump a puppy? Get a life right? Anyways, she's got her first puppy shots. And I've got an appointment to spay her at the end of the month. She's going to be upset. I feel like she needs a bandana. Other than that Hunt and  I are searching for a home with acreage in Northern CA. And it looks like our orders to Italy are near set. Excitement!(:

Saturday and work.

So tomorrow I leave for San Diego(: yay! I've got work today until four and then work tomorrow until noon. My flight leaves at 2:25. I'm stuck in San Fran for three hours and then on my way to San Diego..which I supposed to arrive at 7:40. Then tomorrow's the big day. This is going to be an interesting week.

I need to work on my homework this week for my Child Development, California Geography and Pharmacy Tech.

SUNDAY.

Go(:

I just don't know right now.

Of all the things I've put up with in my life I quite honestly can't tell you why I'm putting up with this. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I truly love and want to be with Hunt. Actually..that is why I'm dealing with this..because I do love him..more than he probably can fathom and understand. This past week has been the most stressful I have ever faced and it's making me physically sick. 

What did I do to deserve this?

I'm not a bad person and when I begin to judge someone it surely is not based on their beliefs but on their character as a person. And I feel like I'm being judged for something I surely did not do. In fact, I didn't do anything at all other than stick up for my beliefs and what I presume is the belief of the person I care about. And what do I get?

"How dare you try to tell me about my son as if I don't know anything about him."

Nowhere in what I had wrote had I told her that she doesn't know anything about her son. I look at that statement and think this: defense tactic to make me feel wrong. I'm not wrong. I know what is right and what is wrong and I was raised by the right parents to ALWAYS stand by what I feel is the correct and right decision for me. When you decide to marry someone you are faced with that fact that after you say "I do," it is no longer about you. I becomes we, me becomes us. You can no longer allow yourself the "selfish" thoughts of an individual but now must have the collective mind of a spouse deciding what is right for the both of us.

I just don't know what is right, what is wrong?

I know baby, but I do. Lying isn't right. It's a clear disrespect. One lie can evolve so easily into several that it's devistating. I've always been a say it how it is, stick to my guns type of girl and I will never change that. I will never cow down to someone to make them "feel" better. I will also stay on that path of right and wrong and live by it because I know in my heart that if I don't, I will only be preparing myself for so much hurt. I can't deal with stress right now in my current situation, I have a job, I have school and I have a social life. When I'm stressed it shows in my actions. I'm more often having to snap back into reality because I'm thinking so much it can be taken as I'm daydreaming when I'm not. I'm just trying to understand how a set of parents, who claim divine right, can be so selfish in their thinking to believe that they honestly know what is best for their son when they haven't even given me the time of day to prove that I am right. But at this point in my thinking I know..I will never be right for him in their eyes. They will always hate me. They will always blame me. They will lie about me. They will twist things about me. They will make me the bitch.

And I can't do a damn thing about it.

What do I say? This isn't me. I am not those things but I have nothing to prove to a selfish couple. I know who I am. My family knows who I am. And I know, you know who I am. I told you after yesterday that we would no longer talk about this, and we wont. This is me venting, instead of to you, but to the whole world. After Tuesday I could see what was happening. Our conversations were being consumed by our situation. I was crying. I was so brutally hurt by what had happened that I couldn't even stop myself from thinking about it. Your family will never like me and after yesterday, after right now, I don't care. But I will not let our conversations become them when our lives are about us and the family we will later have. I've already taken what I feel is the correct route to avoid an improper situation.

• We wont talk about it.
• My Facebook information, along with my MySpace information is set to "friends only."
• If I'm provoked, I will not react.
• If I am written, or spoken to, I will not respond.

I've done those things. That's really all I can do. I will continue to tell you however that I love you, I care about you. It's unconditional and no matter what I will be by your side. This is our life to live.

And I will be happy with it.

Monday, March 8, 2010.

So..in one week I will be married. Holy Jesus.

YAY(:

I don't think I did good on my California Geography test. I should've studied more. And I still have to do two projectsD: I also need to do my Child Development work. I hate homework, really. I'm hungry.

Spring Break..hurry up. Now.

It needs to be Friday.

Might I mention..that I'm not a very patient person when it comes to certain things but DAMN it needs to be 11:57pm on Friday right now! I still haven't wrote my paper for Child Development..actually worse off, I don't even know what it's supposed to be about. I need to work on my Pharmacy Tech stuff..ugh, I feel I'm getting lazy. I'll do it tonight. I can't wait to finally be done with all this. I can't wait till Italy(: it's going to be amazing. I also need to work out..I have to work tomorrow:/ I don't want to! But in order to have Saturday and Sunday off..I have to.

LAME.

On the subject of this: agriculture.

So of my many classes I am taking right now, my Feeds and Feeding class is of course my favorite. Being that it pertains to the job I'd like to have and because it talks about more than just the feeding of animals but the economics of agriculture. As everyone knows, the US employment is significantly higher than it has been in years..and they're calling this "recession" far worse than The Great Depression. And without pointing the blame at anyone, it is clear that change is needed but as far as I am concerned, not in the way we have been receiving it. The current unemployment rate for January 2010 is 9.7% at the national level (Source: http://www.dol.gov/). Now about three years ago the unemployment rate taken in January 2007 was 4.6% (Source: http://www.bls.gov/opub/ted/2007/feb/wk1/art02.htm). Living in California is fairly rough right now as we are one of the harder hit states in the nation. Our current unemployment rate sits at 12.4% (Source: http://www.bls.gov/web/laumstrk.htm). 

It's a well known fact (and I don't have to even source this), that the US Ag Industry is HUGE. And California itself has the largest and most diverse industry in the nation. Yet, we are suffering. Our dairy industry is in the toilet..why? Because we have too many small time dairy farms. Sadly, many of these farmers are suffering immensely. But what is the solution? To do away with it? Maybe, maybe not. Not to mention recent proposition enactments have also put a major set back on our industry. Namely Proposition 2. The ignorance of our nation's people and our state's people astounds me but also the lack of proper leadership is sad. Media is a tool today that can be used to influence an ill-knowledged mind. Today's world has drifted away from agriculture in favor of other jobs. Most hear the word agriculture and automatically begin to think about farms and ranches by that is simply not always the case. There are a wide-range of ag and ag related jobs in this vast nation. Of a 22 million people employed industry less than 10% are actually farmers or ranchers. I was once asked this "Why do you wanna be a ag teacher? All you do is teach kids to be farmers." Not only is this a display of ignorance..it's an irritating thing to say. It is true that some ag taught students will lead their lives as farmers/ranchers but it is not a limiting industry. There is a call for researchers especially in crop management. People making $100k+ a year on just researching how to make our food safer, more efficient..just better. Then there are educators, human resource personnel, manufacturing companies, analysts. Ag is a book of endless possibilities where you can virtually be anything.

Yet we have officials in Washington DC who think that we should do away with most or all ag production and give it to other countries. Can you imagine the job loss? It is true that in our current time less than 3% of our nation's population is employed in ag, compared to that of the more than 60% 100 years ago but it is a profitable and key part of not only the United State's income but many states as well. California namely would suffer greater than any other region. And with continued unfair regulation..it will only grow worse. Proposition 2 in itself was a joke, a ploy to sway a population by false media advertising. And in result, egg prices have raised and it has had a more than direct effect on the dairy industry. It is hard to combat a false message when the opposing side is poorly funded. Most of the supporting side funds came from the Human Society of the United States. 

What people don't understand about proposition two is these few things:

• Caging your chickens is not wrong. In fact it's almost necessary. Uncaged chickens are more susceptible to attack by not only predators but other chickens. And you have never seen either of those you cannot understand how brutal it can be and how uneconomically effective it is on the producer. In direct result you have a loss in production.
• The proposition imposes more regulation (like we need any more) on farmers raising livestock which in turn costs more many to the producer and hikes food prices for the consumer.
• Veil crates are virtually nonexistent in California.
• The gestation crate in pigs are also practically nonexistent in California and the only thing that is closely related are pharrowing crates which the sow is placed in no more than a week before birth and it reduces the chance of harm to not only the sow but her baby piglets.

We are becoming a nation of stupid people and our media is souring it more. But at the same time we have a lack of real leaders as well. Change is needed but not in the way I have seen. Doing away with agriculture and  imposing more regulation when we have enough as is will only kill this industry more and in turn will fuel a higher unemployment rate. 

Beautiful.

I would just like to remark that it is gorgeous outside(: a perfect day to go running with my dog. Then maybe tomorrow take Modoc out on the trailers with Dakota. I can't wait till July! I'm so excited. Yay.

On another note:/ I hate homework haha.

Yes, I'm on coffee:DDD

Today is wonderful.

I really gotta stop forgetting to blog. But how do you remember to do something you regularly forget? Haha. Anyhow, I'm stuck at school until 3:30 and it's only 12 right now:/ NOT COOL! I must say though..I am happy about my classes. So..I assume I should give a total run down of everything? Would probably be a good idea.

So in the process of the last two weeks:

• Meagan has a wonderful boyfriend (in the Navy) who makes her happy(: aww
• She's going to two schools, Butte College (with her five classes) and Penn Foster (with her Pharmacy Tech school)
• If all goes well with Hunt (boyfriend) she will be moving to Italy possibly in July with him (yay). This is likely
• Her car has been fixed! YES(:
• She planted a multitude of seeds the other day for flowers and vegetables
• Bought a new computer desk
• STILL WANTS AN iPHONE DAMN:/
• Is for once--and it seems like forever ago--very happy with her life 
• Hunt bought her flowers(: and a pretty sapphire necklace
• She went trail riding for the first time EVER:DDD and it was AMAZING!
• Acquired a second job with her bestest buddy Cecily

Now..this I need to do:

• Water plants
• Study Penn Foster work
• Type up all school notes
• Schedule to view The Victorian Rose of Biggs with Hunt
• Pick out dresses and shoes, etc 
• BUY A GOLDFISH!
• Clean car
• Wash dog
• Buy that dang ring(:

Flowers from Hunt.

New picture of Maddie..she needs a bath!

Modoc, 12-year-old previous BLM Mustang, Palomino, 14.2 hands. My trail horse now.

Beautiful Oroville trails while riding Modoc.

Silly Hunt(:

Superbowl.

So my Colts lost but I still love'm. There's always next year. Congratulations of the Saints first Superbowl appearance and win. On top of that..school tomorrow. Paper due Thursday. Geography homework on Wednesday. It's February. May is almost here..yay, 19. Then it'll be July. Yay, Cecily's wedding. Then August.

My thoughts on August are still mixed. At first back in November I was angry. I think now I'm just sad. But at the same time..I really don't know what I feel. Maybe I should just let it go.

HYPER.

OMGOMGOMGOMG.
COFFEEEEEE.
YAY:DDDDD

2010

I'm still alive.