Phone calls.

Seems John is getting into the habit of calling me at three o' clock in the morning. Not that I'm complaining but DAMN THAT'S EARLY. He called today. Man..I miss him. Not much is really going on. He still has his Guard shifts so I know just about when he'll call. It's still pretty sporadic but not as much as before. Today's a cleaning day I suppose. The house is a disaster. Not surprising when I'm gone for the night. I might write some more letters today to send out next week. I need to find more Ampad blue paper:/ and Walmart doesn't have it anymore. That's really upsetting. I like my blue paper. It's amazing. This is a lot of homes: clicky really. As you can tell North Carolina is a hell of a lot cheaper than California. I talked to John about me coming out to NC when he gets back from deployment and we could check out some homes. Don't know if he went for that. Sometimes I wonder..he reassures me that this is what he wants but I guess, I always have my doubts because it's reality. People change in a year. I guarantee I will. For better I believe. Maybe I think too much? That's likely. I'm a really difficult person I suppose. Often on guard and closed off. There was a point when I knew it bothered John so much that I thought he'd say he couldn't do this. I hope it never gets to that. I should just be more open. Of anyone, I should be most comfortable with him and I don't believe it's about comfort. It's just how I am. I don't like to talk about my problems. Should probably work on it. I probably wont be getting a call or anything until tomorrow. I got both a call and some messenger time. Which John said he wanted to get a Bronco which personally I think isn't a wise decision. We're better off with a Honda that at least can get the gas mileage. But how do I say that? I can't tell him no..it's his money that he's earning on deployment but I just don't think it's a good decision for a car. I mean for one, gas isn't cheap. Two, I wouldn't be getting a truck then, which is fine. I'm good with a car. And three..really? A Bronco babe? Really? No. I think we're better off with a nice Honda which at least will last us longer than the Bronco. Broncos are gross looking anyhow. Haha.